BPD mindset
Share
my BPD mindset- mental health, evolving, self-awareness, positive affirmations, coping, episodes + more. come join my crazy! https://lnk.bio/i_amjessiemarie
My mania is the only time I feel like I can function. I stay up for days until I crash out. I know this is a horrible coping mechanism.
I know I need to sleep at night, but to be asked "why don't you just go to sleep like a normal person?" from my own father just confirms that some people just don't get it. It's not that they don't care but they actually don't understand it.
I would lay it out on a platter 🍽️ if I could but my mental health is a LOT for me. I never want to put my burden on someone else's shoulders. I just wish they'd take the time to educate themselves and learn.. attempt to understand what my brain goes through daily. It never shuts down. I never get a mental break. I'm handcuffed and stuck in a spinning delusion of life.
People say I'm borderline crazy sorta kinda 🤷🏽♀️
Drop a heart ❤️ if you can relate
04/20/2026
They might sound backwards to you.🥴
Like and share if this hits 🎯 home!
04/20/2026
I don't post much of my children on my page.. but I have to stop and make it a point to acknowledge that even at my absolute lowest, and darkest moments- they are the ONLY reason I have gotten this far and continue to fight to live..
I have 4 kids- 19, 16, 13 and my almost 3 year old, Ariah! My older ones have their own lives and are at school daily, off to college, have friends and boyfriends, etc. but my little one still keeps me by her side. I have good days and some days I feel I won't survive.. and on those days I am reminded that I made it through because of HER (and her siblings of course). I have a huge amount of help from family luckily (due to multiple physical and mental health conditions) .. but even on crappy days, sometimes I just need her and only her with me. Why? Not because I know she needs me. I know this (mostly).. but I NEED HER! Sometimes she IS what gets me out of bed and through the day. I could spend a week not eating or taking care of myself but I could never spend a single day neglecting her. It may be "forcing" me.. but it works. And, the love is never forced. She truly doesn't know how much I need her. I pray someday she'll understand and her siblings will understand how much they saved me, even if I was never quite okay.
So tonight, just spending time with my family and remembering that no matter how weak I feel or might even actually be, I have people who love me and still need me around.🥺🫶🏽
Remind yourselves- you're not alone and you are loved; someone needs you here or you wouldn't still be here!
it's called survival mode.🥺
If you're struggling today; just know you're not alone! Stay strong and reach out to someone if you need help! ❤️🩹
It's called medication management, not magic 🪄😳
03/22/2026
My authenticity is my greatest strength and asset.🫶🏽
Follow and download 👇🏽👇🏽👇🏽.app
03/16/2026
We're getting personal today. I'm at my breaking point. My BPD has already been bad lately. My rage and anger is uncontrollable. So, I've been without 3 of my mental health meds for days. They're called in, come to find out my insurance is inactive. $6 for one med. No biggie. $50 for the other.. okay I have no choice or I'll die from withdrawls. 3rd runs $1,000 and is my antipsychotic - I cannot just stop this medication but I also can't just do a grand on a prescription. Then in 2 days my last med is due and runs over $100. I was already at my breaking point.. over the edge.. then I get hit with this and I actually can't take anymore. I don't have it in me. I just don't. I can't anymore..
On that note- here's my madness. Raged out and cut my entire bedroom floor rug apart, stabbing boxes and bottles and whatever was around.. but literally just smashed my rug apart for probably a good 20 minutes. This is me coping; subbing on the floor slashing apart my rug.😳🥺
Click here to claim your Sponsored Listing.
