Emily Hoxworth

Our daughter ❤️

One of the happiest days of my life was finding out she'd be joining us.

It was 2021 when I picked up my Grandma Rose at her little house in Shadyside to drive her up to my mom's.

Rosie looked over at me, dissecting me with her wise eyes and said," You're pregnant?"

I couldn't believe she said that, no one knew I was pregnant again except Will and I.

I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet,
But, I also wasnt gonna lie to my grandma.

"Yes."

She smiled big. " Good. You're going to have a daughter."

It was proven a few months later in an ultrasound, but I love that Rose knew before anyone else.

This little girl has exceeded all expectations.
Our Stella Storm is tough. And sweet. And silly. And firm.

May I be shown the way to raise her how she ought to be 🙏

My mom

When I called her from school sick, multiple times a week, she picked me up every time.
She took me to every specialist from Pittsburgh to Cincinatti. Until we found the answers, she wouldn't stop searching.

When I woke up from a dream that I was on a stage, she told me, "Find an acting class."

When I told her I wanted to move to the beach and live with strangers found on a Craigslist ad, she drove the 9 hours and dropped me off.

When I told her I was gonna get married in 3 weeks, she told me "Let's do it however you want to." And she showed up for every single moment.

To go get the dress. Then the next one. Then the accidental one. That ended up being the right one 😂 (funny story Ill tell you about it soon)

She'd have shown up happily, even if I told her 1 night before.

For all mine and my brothers troubles we've maybe had or not had, she has prayed.
Fought.
Talked back.
Went elsewhere.
Loved.
Always loved.
With the best of her ability.
In every room, she has loved and supported.

She showed up with wedding cakes I didn't order so she could surprise us.
She had placemats out at the restaurant we went to after the wedding and Tea bags in celebration of our marriage.
She had bubbles there for all the kids.

She kept our three babies safe while Will and I went away together for the first time since having kids.
She didn't only keep them alive, she nurtured them.
As she nurtured me.

Will tells me one of his favorite things about me, is the way I nurture our babies.

I only know how to do this out of instinct because of the way she nurtured me.
Always.
In all phases.
She showed me how to take care of them.
So now I can do it myself.

Thank you God for sending me to her.
Thank you God for sending her to Rose, who was the nurturer of all.

Thank you mom, for all you've showed me.
I love you.

Since the 8th of September I have slept...

In an Airbnb in Ohiopyle
In an inn in Ohiopyle
In a cabin in the Poconos
In a hotel outside of Cleveland
In a cabin along a lake on a paddleboarding retreat

This is coming from a person who rarely leaves her house 😂

I have been busy and out of my element,
In all these lovely places with lovely people, by the grace of God, I've held on to intention and grounding and gratitude in my prayers.

The insane childlike admiration of the One Who made it all possible.

Who guides me in everything.

Fully recognizing that nothing that goes on in this life is a result of my own abilities or strengths.

There have been so many circumstances this month where I'm like... that's God right there.

It's been a sweet spot to be in.
A great adventure.
I'll be chilling out( for now haha) and the memories I've made will last me a lifetime.

Thank you letters to my earthside people who have contributed in all the beauty will be coming soon!

Thank you thank you thank you✝️🙏

I hope you get to go away with your person.

I hope he looks at you and sees you.

I hope you are able to tell him what you need after he finishes telling you.

I hope if there is any anger or resentment after years of being together and trying to exist as one,
I hope you hash it out.

Address it. Apologize where you need to. Forgive them, too.

Even if the words come out through tears, "I was really mad at you."
These are words worth saying.

I hope you can sit by a fire in silence seeing only each other and feel totally fulfilled.

I hope you go somewhere youve never been and know no one.

It was therapy. It was hard. It was beautiful. It was needed.

I hope you get that.

Intense. Content.

How I'd describe our honeymoon 🔥🤍

"How about 12 minutes?"
He found out we wanted it to start at 12. He wanted to try to end it at 12:12.

He said it again, the last I spoke to him as Emily Good, as we were walking down the steps to the waterfall.

Pastor Dave spoke the most stunning set of words that I've ever heard.

Maybe it was seen as a strange place to get married.
But he thought it was perfect.
Because,
The water reminds us that things are always changing.

The same water that swirled around our feet in this moment, wouldn't be here tomorrow.
Just like troubles in our life.

He prayed over us in his rumbling voice, his big gray beard moving along with it.
Majestic.

He didn't begrudgingly show up.
He showed up with power, with love, and with willingness.

I dont know where I'd be in my walk with God if it wasn't him that was there in that little church.

I dont know if we could've ever gotten married by anyone else and have it be so completely true to us.

Pastor Dave finished the ceremony and after we kissed, he showed me his phone.
It was 12:12.

If you don't know the significance of that (I didn't at the time) in biblical standards, look it up.
It's pretty powerful and makes me cry everytime I think about it.

We cannot thank him enough for the way he has blessed us.

I think Wednesdays are my new favorite

Me embarrassing my kid and begging for any opportunity to tell these nurses and doctors about my wedding last week😬