Phat Barbie

Food on plate. Not always healthy and definitely not always finished meals.
Looking forward to a lot more salads as the weather warms up. I definitely struggle to eat the right things when I'm in a night shift cycle.

Tried these this week. Often when I wake after a night shift nap I find myself running out the door last minute to pick Miss 16 up from school or something.
These are perfect for those days. 98 cals and 15 grams of protein. Tasty too.
I bought some other flavours but I'm yet to try.

Ate, ate and ate some more today. Time of the month always has me doing this.
Pre surgery on bad food days I would have felt bad about myself and I would never have "still" gone for a work out.

Today I knew my calorie intake was way too high but there was no guilt AND I still went to the gym.
I 110% need to watch what I eat but bad days for me just don't come with guilt anymore.

I know a bad day every now and again is not going to ruin all the hard work I've done and workouts for me these days have become "non negotiable"

They are just something my body needs and wants to do now.

It's an absolute game changer to lose guilt around food.

Having a hormonal day so decided to treat myself to a greasy takeaway. I don't do this often before anyone loses their mind.

Ordered a small portion of chips with gravy (a delicacy here in Australia) 😉😂 and one piece of fried chicken.

I knew I wouldn't be able to get through it but I had a craving and I wanted to indulge after a rough morning.

When the food was handed to me the staff member says, "the chicken pieces are on the small side so I gave you extra."

Obviously I thanked her knowing they won't be eaten but it made me remember all the times when this would have made me so happy 😋😋😋😋

Oh how times have changed.

Crazy to me that I feel better now in my 50s than I did in my 30s.

Sunday shoutout.

I always shout about my surgeon and my personal trainer but this guy deserves some attention too.

I remember telling him over the phone about my decision to have surgery (he was away at the time) and his response was, "we can discuss it when I get home."

I promptly told him that there was nothing to discuss 😂

He has always been supportive and at my heaviest never made me feel anything other than loved.

Every diet I started, every gym membership I signed up for and rarely used and every time I had a meltdown over feeling fat or being in pain due to the pressure on my body, he was always supportive.

Now days he smiles (even though I know he is completely bored) every time I do dress ups with new clothes, every time I make him feel my muscles and all the times I insist on photographing my food 😂

To the long suffering Simon. Thank you # #

Simon Laughton

What I didn't know would happen after gastric sleeve. Only my experience.

- I would not p**p regularly again
- I would cry over loose skin
- I'd generally be cold
- I'd be treated differently by strangers (even have offers of one night stands) 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣
- I'd learn to love clothes and shoe shopping again
- I'd wear heals again
- I'd no longer need day naps
- so many people I knew would secretly tell me that they'd had surgery too
- I'd learn to love the gym especially having a personal trainer
- I'd learn to love eating out again
- on nights out I barely leave the dancefloor

Cannot believe it's been almost 2 years since surgery.
Life is certainly very good.

Food of late.

As you know I eat a lot of eggs but with the nicer weather I've been trying to eat more fruit.
I probably don't get enough fiber so adding more fruit is great for me.

I've been having a lot of rice paper rolls and am so bad at wrapping them. They look hideous but I assure you they taste great.

Starting the week right with a trip to the gym 🥰🫶

Sunday prep for a good week.
Omg the weather is absolutely beautiful. Spring has certainly sprung. Bring on summer 🌺