Fay Israsena

April had a plan, and then it didn’t.

Something I had invested in quietly fell apart. No drama. Just the slow recognition that the vision I had been running on was a mirage.

My first instinct was to put the warrior suit on. I know by now that doesn’t work. No good decisions are made in a state of disarray.

So I let my heart sink. I waited. And that same week, almost by instinct, I did a three-day sardine fast.

What I didn’t expect was how much the biology mirrored everything else I was feeling.

In metabolic science there is something called metabolic flexibility — the body’s capacity to shift fuel sources when the primary one runs out. The gap between the old fuel and the new one coming online is uncomfortable, necessary, and not the same as failure.

Neither is the gap between the life you planned and the one that is actually forming.

Full essay linked in bio. Including why a ten-year vegan is now eating red meat, and why her digestion has never been calmer.

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