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Dear open diary,
Everyday I see posts/quotes that encourages letting people go when they don't add up in one's life, letting go in relationship, mental health letting go and all that.
But deep down, I don't want anyone to let me go. I want to be held on so tight and so long until I feel safe to let my heart open up for love.
For if they keep letting go this easy and quickly too, then I guess someone with a heart like mine might never find true love.

We all need someone to hold on to us through thick and thin. To convince us truly that they are there not just for the good times but all times

My kind of love.

I am a very sensitive person. My ability to sense energy around me is both a blessing and a disadvantage.
U informed everyone about something important in ur life except me. And now I didn't call or text when everyone did and u are angry at me.
Well, I just wanted to make u feel how it feels when you think you are cool with someone but they sideline you on important issues/events in their lives.

So I was at the market yesterday and on getting to this young guy's shop, he goes to say...hey are u married, you look like a married woman.

Dear fam im confused, is that supposed to be a compliment or it's an insult.

Note, the guy said he means no insult at all.

What do y'all think??

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Ok. O I created this page so I can write. Write out all my thoughts that makes my mind wander to crazy. Cus my life makes sense only when I pen down what goes on in my head.
So of late I'm having this experience.
I had a 'supposed' friend. We both usually chat about my roomie. How her character is so awful and how she loves to flirts with men and knows little about kitchen stuffs.
I was the one living with her but my friend also comes around sometimes and had noticed it too even before I spoke it out.
She would always say she couldn't tolerate the girl and that they both share no chemistry, this and that's. I would be the one downing my roomie's shortcomings and trying to give excuses but my 'supposed'friend would have no excuses to tell it as it is, saying the girl needs someone that would put her in her place.
Then a time came when we both had issues and our friendship started falling out.
That's when I knew that some persons are just scared of being alone and are waiting to cleave to anybody to call a friend.
Guess those portraying themselves as the best of friends rn. And to think that they are doing it to spite me and make me feel jealous makes it more pathetic, funny and disgusting.
Right now, looking at them, I'm grateful that I'm no longer friends with such kind of personality.
They both deserve each other. But it's funny because they both don't know what each has thought and said about the other before now.
For me, it's good radiance to bad rubbish cus how the eff do you accommodate someone whom you've condemned totally, and even while u are being friends, the person still has all the flaws u hated her for.

It hurt so much knowing how quickly and easily it was for u to forget US

That's why loving is bravery. Giving ur heart to one whom u don't know how he would take care of it and when he intends to break it.

I miss u. I miss u so much but I av to keep my self respect. It's hard, I'm so tempted to call or chat u.I'm just here wishing you feel the same.
I knew we had no future. But having u in my present was lite

I fear I might not ever find the love I'm searching for.
Now the clock is ticking yet now I have no one to call mine.

You are the reason for my bad day but you are the only one who can turn my bad day into a smile.
You then are my lover
And I am in love with you

Some of us have built ourselves to be so strong outwardly but when you break through us, we are so soft. Just like the snail.
So please don't treat us as hard as our shells cus that's just our protective layer.