Bell's Palsy Support

Dear Friends.
I do not post so much, here’s one to make up for it!

Since last year we live in a Covid-ruled world. I try to understand the way our Government tries to control the virus. I guess its a bit out of my comprehension if that is the way.... In the mean time I feel controlled in my LIFE, my work, my social network. I try to adapt and I feel resistance.

As a Bell’s Palsy ‘person’, I know (as you all know) how it is to have a (partly) paralyzed controlled face.
You want to blink your eye: you can’t.
You want to give a BIG smile: you get stuck.
You want to feel congruent in you whole face: nope.

How does this effect me?
I feel a victim of rules, myself, my effortless trying to make life still ‘normal’. I walk up against walls. I suffer.

These last two months I have chosen to live ‘outside’ the Covid-world. I am very priviliged to be able to pull back in a Tiny house in the middle of woods, between water and meadows. Silence. Solo.

I woke up everyday at sunrise, quite early. I went outside into the freezing world, we had lots of snow and ice in February. So beautiful! Such stillness.
I guess I was practicing at the same time to dive deep inside my own stillness, to listen to my inner voices.
To my voices of judgments, grievances, resistance. The poweful voice of sadness and fear. The harsh voice of pityfullness, worthlessness and loneliness.

I realized at a certain point: the only way to free myself out these destructive voices and feelings of ‘imprisonment’ and ‘being controlled’ by no matter WHAT (virus, rules, BP, my OWN thoughts, etc) is to STOP believing and identifying myself as:
I am .. a victim of my body and 11 years of being a BP person.
..a victim, at the mercy of all those negative thoughts about myself and the world.
..a victim of other people’s rules.
..a victim of attachments, things I ‘need’ to feel happy etc.

From a very deep place of Truth, I know that my freedom lies IN me: it is always MY CHOICE how I think about me. I change my thoughts and therefor I change my perception of myself ánd the world!

So I founded my own Statement of Independence:
I am healed;
I am not my body, I have a body;
I am free, where ever I go/I am;
I do not need anything;
I choose my thoughts, either Fear or Love, this is only MY responsibility;
I choose who I want to be: a BP/judgmental/resentful person or a being of Love/Peace/Joy/Worth.

I C H O O S E L O V E.

So... the Covid-world has not changed since, my BP face is still the same, my work is very slow, my social life became much less.

It has not changed anything WHO I AM in Truth.

I am Love.
I am Peace.
I am Joy.
My worth is established by God.

Unchangeable. Unbreakable.

This is my Statement of Independence.
I AM FREE.

The sun rises every morning. These days the sun is behind many thick clouds and lots of rain.
But its there!
Just like LOVE. Its there in YOU ALL.
Always.
Reach out for it through those veils of clouds.
Open your door to your true Self.
You’ll find happiness.
And so much LOVE.

This is WHAT YOU ARE!

I work with the Choose Again Six Steps method. A way to free yourself of restrictive old beliefs and blocking attachements. To open up the commitment with your true being of Love.
Feel free to contact me! Ask questions.

I facilitate ONLINE courses, workshops and counseling, for anyone english speaking, worldwide.
You are very WELCOME.

Www.patriciagorter.nl (only in Dutch)
[email protected]

Dear friends.
Its been a while.
Last months have been quite challenge for me. Not because of Covid-19.
I was dealing with my fears.
Getting out of the darkside of my mind, stepping into the light with ALL that I Am. With my fears for love, for loneliness, for abandoning, for insecurity about my face.

What did the thing?!! I connected with my darkside, my fears.
I let it be, I didn’t run away!
I faced them and I was radical honest with myself. I processed (yes, I still work daily with the Six Stepsproces by Choose Again- Diederik Wolsak) and the light in me came back as a radiant wave of Life and Love.

BEING ONLINE
I have so much energy now! I feel I an Online with myself. All kinds of new projects are moving around in me. And I am activating it! I am facilitating ONLINE SIX STEPS WORKSHOPS for people all over the world. In English, in Dutch.

Keep looking for my next post; I will offer an ONLINE FREE ZOOM CLASS for those connected in this group, to work on your emotions about your fears, your Bell’s Palsy.

I wrote a poem early this morning.

‘Bring your darkness to the surface
shed some light upon it.
It will crack open when you let it be,
so the light of love finds a way to see.

Don’t let it be burried inside your prison, don’t let it rule your life unaware.
Share your deepest fears,
your crazy, frightful thoughts with love and light. Be there.

Break open, softly with compassion.
You are not alone.
There is a crack in every cloud,
let it be and shine,
that’s how the lights gets out.’

Lovely day, Patricia

This man changed my life... more accurate: he gave me the tools to change my life MYSELF! And I did. So grateful for the teachings and Six Steps process: I am NOT defined by my Bell’s Palsy, my worth and who I AM is defined by LOVE !

Mark your calendar! Share with your friends! Gather your questions!
Our founder Diederik Wolsak will be live on Facebook.
After a brief overview of Choose Again and frequently asked questions, he will be answering as many of YOUR questions as possible!
Just go to Choose Agains page January 12th!

IMAGINE
What a wonderful word this is “Imagine”. For me this means : Image-in. I create my own image IN myself. I’ve been experiencing with this, making this as specific and intensional as I can. I can do this with anything! With good stuff and with negative stuff.
I strongly belief what I imagine -IN ME- is how I see the world OUTSIDE OF ME. I won’t say my imaginations manifest in the form, the world. But I do think it influences my interpretation of my experiences.

I’ve been seeing the world for a long time quite negatively. Now I know this is because I still believed negative obstructing beliefs, false images.
When transforming this in another image, my world started to change substantially! That’s how the Choose Again Six Step process helped me to release old images and create new ones. Such wonderful new imaginations.. and guess what: these are True.

So, imagine your own peaceful, loving world inside you, its real! Its True. You WILL find peace and love everywhere. Because its your choice.

Its all about being truthful to your true inside world. Your true Source. Imagine how your life would be like...

IMAGINE
What a wonderful word this is “Imagine”. For me this means : Image-in. I create my own image IN myself. I’ve been experiencing with this, make this as specific and intensional as I can. I can do this with anything! With good stuff and with negative stuff.
I strongly belief what I imagine in me, is how I see the OUTER world. I don’t say my imaginations manifest in the form. But I do think it influences my interpretation of my experiences.

I’ve been seeing the world for a long time quite negatively. Now I know this is because I still belief negative obstructing beliefs, false images.
When transforming this in another image, my world started to change substantially!

So, imagine your own peaceful, loving world inside you, its real! You WILL find peace and love everywhere. Because its your choice.

Its all about being true to your truthful inside world. Your true Source. Imagine how your life would be like...

Christmas.
Time to be peaceful.
To be grateful for all we have.
To be joyful for our friends and family. And even if this is not so,
can I be happy with mySelf?
My True being of peace, joy and love is something to be grateful for.
Every day of my life.
Christmas is a challenging time to
not get lost in fear and attacks.
Its a good time to look deeper inside,
Where I can find what I am still blocking
to feel only Love.
To acknowledge, I have gratitude for All I am.
Peace, love and gratitude IS provided to all of you. Reach out into yourself,
Its there.
Thank you for following Bells Palsy Support.
I am here to be truly helpful,
Love you to you all.
Patricia

It’s a wonderful clear, cold and sunny day. I am feeling comfortable in my warm and cosy house. In my soft and strong body. In my loving and joyful Me.... and then something happend.
I feel so cold, lonely and sad.

Its not the cold from outside, or being alone at home..as it looked like to me..
It is my own cold thoughts about Me.
The way I judge myself.
The way I still feel some self-hatred.
The way I look so critical at myself.. to say : at my BP face.
The way I feel guilty about many things.
The way I feel grievances about my past.

I am like a Hawk these days. Catching every thought of coldness and attack.
I am vigilant!
I am learning to LOVE mySelf.

So I say to my self: just wait a little while... just STOP!

This is my old story again attached to stories programmed long ago. In my childhood.
It is time to say goodbye and step out of places of freezing darkness.
Into the warm light of What I Am.
I keep reminding myself this the whole day long.

I use the Chooose Again Six Stepprocess to ‘travel’ through the cold and darkness to unravel my false beliefs I ‘made up’ as a child.
I forgive myself for believing my old stories. I forgive myself for forgetting the Light and Love I am. Unchanged and unchangeable.
I am perfect! Yes, with all I Am.

My worth is established by love and not by my past, grievances, guilt, judgements, sadness.

I choose to be Free instead of being hooked to some old silly mistaken beliefs. Time to live in Greatness.
Time to BE Love.

Love you all. Patricia

I received a heartwarming message from a beautiful woman, recovering from Bell’s Palsy (half facial paralysis).
So I love to share her post and respect her privacy by not sharing her name.

SHE WROTE: ”I am currently recovering from BP. It happened to me 4 months ago. I just started to see some improvements so I’m very happy. But I too am experiencing some Synkinesis. Mostly afraid of the unknown. Curious what my face will look like when this is over. Aside from the beginning I’ve remained strong, positive and hopeful but mostly greatful that my health otherwise is great and that it could always be worse. Going through this experience has changed me, for the better. I appreciate myself more, have more self love and have never been more grateful for who I am or what I look like. You touched my heart with your commend on your experience. I am glad this happened as I needed to make changes in my life that I may never have done otherwise. A blessing in disguise? Maybe. I feel blessed. I am glad I found your page. Thank you!!”
💜❤️
ME: it is true. BP is a blessing in disguise. It has brought me so much healing, in many ways. It made me realize that my body is not my identity. For so long I was so attached to my looks: this was my whole identity.
Now I know: I have BP- but I AM NOT BP. It took my a couple of years to clearify this out. To detach. Since then my whole system has started to relax more and more. My pains are diminishing, my face has improved. I feel joyful because joy is my birthright, this is Who I AM in Truth. As joyful as the blossoming tulipfields in the Netherlands. I feel grateful.
❤️💜

Facial nerve - a cable with 10,000 wires - Crystal Touch Bell's Palsy Clinic Our facial nerve can be compared to a telephone cable that connects the telephone station (nerve nucleus in the brain) with the neighbourhood (our face).

On a normal wednesdaymorning I wake up feeling JOYFUL. This is a different feeling then on other mornings.
Its not because I have a expectations of the day, seeing friends, going to work. It is not because I am pleased with my hair (got a fresh haircut yesterday).
There is something basically different.
For years and years I had morning-moods. Feeling down and depressed.. dreading for the day with diffilculties.. pain in my body... my BPface. Watching myself in the mirror... Maybe you know what I’m talking about😒..

What has changed???
I have been working on my obstructive negative beliefs. The ones programming my thoughts unconsciously.. Running my life! Ruling my feelings! I discovered that these beliefs are the REAL CAUSE of my morning moods. Not the upcoming day, body or face...
I’ve worked daily with the Six Steps method by Choose Again. Founded by Diederik Wolsak some 25 years ago.
Every UPSET (yes.. the morning mood too) is a gift to discover the underlying negative belief. Once the belief is unravelled and kindly ‘let go’, the healing can start. This means: there is a new space in me I can sustain myself with love, peace and joy. Establishing the truth who I REALLY am. I am not the mood, the pain. I am intrinsic Love, Worth and I am Complete! This makes such a BIG change. I practice this a lot, because my whole system & program has to learn that there is a new way of looking at things.
If my innerself is miserable, I reflect this in the world, and I interpret the world as miserable. So.. if I experience joy and love in myself, I see this in the world!
Seeing the world as a joyful place comes only from without, from ME.

I AM THE AUTHOR OF MY LIFE!!
This sounds good to you?
You can contact me for more information about Choose Again Six Steps. Workshops and retreats in Canada, USA, Costa Rica, France, Netherlands, Belgium, Switserland. And: www.choose-again.com
Love Patricia