Shanzaa Writes

فیض احمد فیض نے ہر چیز سچ لکھی ہے سوائے ایک شعر کہ
“بول کہ لب آزاد ہیں تیرے “

It was 2004, 26th of August I joined new school as a new comer, I was un-aware of everything, It always feels uncomfortable for me to get attach with new people's,

I saw you on that day we were in grade 5,

I still remembered 2 ponytails of you & your leedul muchkin's,

Your frankness with other classmates and while never noticing me,

I always followed those Paths who leads me towards you during break time,
Whenever you took permission for going out for water,
I remembered i also took permission and follows you like a shadow,

Time Passes, and after one year i was searching here and there for a week, but failed to found you in my class nor in school,

After asking from one of your friend about you she told me you have left school and joined another school in other town,

سانحے تو اور بھی گزرے ہیں مجھ پہ مگر,
مرحلہ تجھ سے بچھڑنے کا مارگیا,

It took some 2, 3 years to me blur your memories, i never choose any other girl till my stay there in school for 7 years,

Whenever someone ask me about wheather i love anyone ? Or i am still in affair with anyone?

I used to tell them those lyrics of Mehdi Hassan " اک حسن کی دیوی سے مجھے پیار ہوا تھا"

I even tried to search you, but these social media's were not active at that time,

I used to ask from those friends of you about you, and they told "Baat nahi hoti us'se ab", but even i missed you,

I joined university, but even we were not in same univ,

One of my friend saw you at your university, he called me on spot and told , "Still How Pretty and gorgeous you are",

I left everything what i was doing at that time,

Even in 4 years of university,
I kept my loyalty reserved for you,

It was 2017, i visited my admin block,
I saw you after 12 years,
You was with your colleague, disappears within seconds,

I left my friends, i was searching you here and there but i did'nt find you anywhere,

That was the night i did'nt slept,
I searched you on FB,
I found you, i texted you,
I informed you about everything,
You didn't recognized but informed you are engaged now,

وہ مجھے چھوڑ گیا نہ جب,
سورج تھا میرے سَر پہ مگر جیسے شام ہوگئی,
,

I decided to part my ways, to focus on my career,
I started forgetting you,

But once i saw your comment on this Group which shown you are upset,

I texted you after 4 years,
You did'nt replied,

My father passed away, i was in deep deep trouble's,

I was offering condolences,
A short message appears on my screen,
Showing your name with reply " Do i know you"?

I replied you after 7 days,
I again informed you about everything,

But this time you decided to join me,
I asked for friendship, you accept it,

You stood along me while my baba have left,
You supported me in my worst of worst,

I started enjoying my life,
A person whom i waited for 17 years have started believing in me,
Have started appreciating me,

I started loving you again, i supposed this is miracle from almighty when he took precious baba of mine, he replaces you with him to lower my pain,

But good things not lasts forever,
Some evil eyes has hit our relation,

اس زندگی کا ورغلایا میں,
ہاتھ پھر اپنے بھی نہ آیا میں,
عین جوبن بھی تھی جب محبت اپنی,
آخری بار تھا تب مسکرایا میں۔۔۔۔

You informed me that I am not good for You,

When You told me this, I lost part of my happiness, Part of me that is always core of existence,

YOU think that i will move on, I will found a better one,

دنیا جہاں کی محبت سے آپ کو کوئی فرق نہیں پڑتا ، اگر یہ اُس کی طرف سے نہیں ہے جس کی آپ کو ضرورت ہے۔

Everyday, Everytime, Everywhere,
I may shall not be with you,
But my thinking, my care, my prayers will always follow you...

You Will Missed as always

_Kamran Baloch

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