Valkyrie Crossing Salon

I am still... so messed up. It's been four and a half months and I am still consumed by grief. I'm learning I will be for a long time. It's debilitating. Right now I'm struggling with feeling like I need to be ok so I can run a business, run my home and be a functioning person in society and honestly, it feels... impossible. I'm empty.

I get up, cry, get ready for work, drive to work, cry in the car then compose myself in the parking lot and put my mask on so that my clients don't have to feel my grief. I then finish my day, cry all the way home, walk my dog and then cry and crumble for the night. I'm not yet able to balance this and want to talk about because I feel like I am letting my clients down if I don't let you know where I'm at.

I am not able to text you back right now. I'm not able to squeeze you in if you cancel your appt. I am not able to make it to work everyday and sometimes the grief hits me like a train and I have to leave the salon. I have 163 unread text messages right now and 90% of them are from clients and I don't have the spoons to go through them. This eats at me for many reasons and I hate it, but it's where I'm at. I want you to know so you don't think I'm just ignoring you if I owe you a text back, or that I don't want to do your hair. I'm just so sad, all the time.

I lost my anchor in this world and it's going to take me time to learn this new person I am becoming and how I navigate life and work. Right now I'm floating and surviving.

The best way to get an appt right now is to go on my website(linked in bio) and book there. If you need in sooner than what is available it's best to get on my waitlist as I check that often and can get people in if there are cancellations or time opens up. You are still very welcome to text me, but if I am not able to text back it's not you and I'm so sorry if my lack of ability to balance work well right now is frustrating. You are so valid in feeling that.

I really hope you all are doing well and I am so grateful for the community of clients that I have. I am touched by your love and support daily and am eternally grateful. Thanks for bearing with me.♥️♥️

Swipe to see the inspo. We wanted an oxidized copper vibe for the sweet Hot Bomb Nails 🧡💚💙

Hi all, I still can't really talk about it yet... I feel like a tether has been cut and I'm drifting out to a dark cold sea.. That said, I wanted to extend my gratitude again for all of the donations on the gofundme Rebekah made. I have posted an update on that page to share what this meant to me since I haven't had the bandwidth to reach out individually.

If anyone knew us they know my mom and I were each others worlds. Losing her has caused a pain and ache I have no words to describe. Your donations are allowing me to feel that and survive in this world. Not only am I eternally grateful but my momma would be so thankful you all have helped her baby have the space to feel and survive this time in my life.

Thank you to everyone who has also made me food, brought me flowers and chocolate or has extended condolences. I am so sorry I am not really responding individually but know I see your messages and they mean the world. ♥️♥️ thank you so much.

My sweet momma passed very early this morning. I can't talk about it yet but she passed peacefully and she was alone. Thank you all for the support and love over the last few weeks especially. And thank you to everyone who donated to the gofundme to give me the opportunity to stay by her side, be with my family and grieve the greatest loss of my life. We will be quietly grieving for a while.♥️💔

I posted a mom update on my personal IG page (Steph Seabrook) if you're wanting to know how everything is going. I don't have it in me to post it here too. Thank you all for your love, support and donations to the gofundme. Those donations are the reason I am able to be with her right now and I will forever be eternally grateful. *this pic was taken last week*

This mom update is a lot harder to write. Mom has been slowly declining over the last few weeks and we are now moving into the hospice side of her care. We took her to the ED two nights ago to see if there was another UTI or something underlying that is causing her baseline to drop but unfortunately that's not the case. She's just declining. 😔

We are meeting with the staff at the care facility Friday to discuss what hospice and comfort care will look like. Until then I don't have much info. There is no way to tell how much time we have as hospice can weeks or years but what I know is she sleeps most of the day and hasn't been eating or drinking much the last couple weeks. Talking is hit or miss depending on how tired she is but today I was able to get a few words out of her. I can update again after our meeting in Friday if there is new news. I'm not sure what this means for my schedule. There are days I will have to last min cancel and head to mlm to be with her. Her days are now ok or really bad and I don't want to miss time with the most important person in my world especially when we are in this stage now.

I can't lie, I'm not ok. I know one can never prepare for these life changes but I can't imagine a world without my momma and coping with this has been the biggest challenge of my life. I miss my mom, who she was and I will deeply miss who she is too. Between living alone and being a business owner the balance has been very difficult but I'm spending as much time with her as I can because she deserves to at least not be alone.

I'll update as needed. ♥️