Mystical Manicures Nail Art by Kay

I take accountability for every choice I have made. The choices I made in the past (the last 6 years especially)have caused immeasurable pain, damage, loss and trauma. I desperately tried to overcome situations and health issues that I never asked for and I never wanted. I have no choice but to take accountability for the loss, pain and destruction some of those choice have rendered. I made choices that were good and I also made choices I had no idea would bring such incredible pain and destruction to my life, and apparently, the lives of others. Every single day I bear the weight of the trauma I had no idea I would have to endure when I made those choices. I suffocate under the weight of that trauma for how it spilled over and affected people in my life that I love deeply and without restraint. I have time and time again dragged myself up out of the pits of the hell I endured and kept going. I never gave up even when there was no end in sight for the pain and trauma. I have loved without restraint, I have given when I had nothing to give. I have forgiven what most people would say was unforgivable. I have remained kind, and soft and chosen love and kindness over hate time and time again. I have worn my heart on my sleeve just to have it ripped off and thrown back in my face. I have been called cruel for setting boundaries to try and protect myself from further destruction. I have stared death in the face due to health issues and at the hands of another person whom I tried to help and love. I had to leave my children, grandchildren and friends that I loved deeply in order to literally have a chance at surviving. I have forfeited justice for absolutely SICK actions against me in order to have the best chance at simply surviving to see another day. I have lost my home a few times the past 3 years due to Cancer and related other illnesses. I lost a career I put every ounce of my heart and soul into building and give myself and my kids a life that was deserved. I lived through severe beatings and literally stared into the eyes of someone while they strangled me unconsciousness several separate times...fully aware that it was probably going to be the last moments I

So thankful for My Love. My Lighthouse. She literally never calls me by any name but beautiful; she calls on me often...releasing a swarm of dragonflies in my stomach... >(< 🤍 I love you, baby