The Well Being

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Last night I had a deep remembering, a coming back to myself at a depth that I hadn’t felt in years.

The experience broke me open to all of the overwhelming grief that I used to feel, a feeling that once felt like it would kill me if I couldn’t put a limit on it. So I did, I blocked it to a certain level in order to survive.

It’s beautiful that as we evolve in our experiences and expand our capacities, we’re often offered opportunities to revisit old areas of overwhelm, pain, grief, confusion, or loss of self, in order to experience those feelings better equipped, with more awareness and grounding, so that we can integrate those areas and alchemize their charged feelings.

For me, this processing is greatly helped with breathwork, guided meditation, journeying, Reiki, tapping, ecstatic dance, and songs or visuals, while honoring that certain parts of myself have been more accessible through herbs and plant medicines.

So last night, when those feelings came on, I guided myself through a meditation with the support of a cannabis tincture my dear friend had made for me, and I was able to house those deep feelings.

Their depth was surprising, but also welcomed, because I realized I was ready to embrace those parts of me again—that I’d done enough of the deep work to be able to revisit and hold space for those feelings in order to honor and integrate them with love.

They did feel overwhelming at first, but I’d expanded to hold them. I’d grown into my capacity for my ability to access the depth of my grief and love into the darkness. Not to say this is where it ends—bc we keep experiencing deeper and again aren’t always prepared for the depth of those feelings—but if you’re an empath, deep feeler, or deep compassion holder, you’ll feel me when I say this was still a huuuge moment.

I’m so grateful for supportive practices and what they can offer a heart that needs healing—for me, it includes finding my way back to myself, accessing that internal landscape in a safe and loving way, calling back all the parts of myself that have been without witness or love or connection, and guiding them into deep embodiment, into belonging. 🧡🙏🧡