Fades by Jacksonn

I don’t hate you just confused . You call me son but I was lost in all of this . I had time to reflect on this all day , I’m still in shock and I’m full of anger. Mad tears and I’m really trying to cope . You were my second mom more than my aunt . All of the people I called my friends were immediately TT’s babies and you genuinely loved them all. You gave me so many memories , so many stories and I can honestly say me having no filter came from you. Miss all of the things b you use to say 😂 and the damn accents “Lil D f**k them who cares 😂” “Yeah I know, your TT’s pretty hot stuff” “You shut your c**k holster when you talk to me “. One of my favorite memories when me and 4 my friends ditched school and drove all the way from centennial hills to lake mead and Hollywood because I wanted some chicken and waffles . No hesitation you went to get everything and cooked for everyone. I just called you on the first to prove a point to one of my friends that my TT will really do anything for. Call you at 11:30 at night TT I need you to get up. I need a bag of chicken 16 piece pieces fried hard and I need to buy tonight. You gonna do that for me? No hesitation she said yes just bring me the stuff. The little beats TT did always mattered to me and I miss. I love you every day. I’m sorry I couldn’t see you more and you kept telling me it’s OK TT’s babies on a mission. You understood me more than anybody in this world and I understood you. I just really wish you could’ve talk to me about everything else. You took a big piece of me and dad when you left , e we weren’t ready nor prepared. You could’ve really just called me and you know how to be right there. I’m gonna see you when my time is done but as you told me you know what you have to do to be where you wanna be and that starts with faith in God . you go up there and you give chuckie, mama brandy, Ricky and kia the biggest hug for me ! I still love you I’m just upset TT. I’m still waiting for my text back that damn android never did you justice lol .