A Recovering Makeup Addict

Methadone update!

Methadone update! Please reach out if you ever want to talk!

I Woke up feeling blessed this morning. To still be here. 3 years ago I might not have been so lucky or even today if I didn’t get help. I been thinking about the ones that weren’t so lucky and the fun times we had. A few I was closer then others. We would discuss our life once we were clean and how awesome it would be. Feeling “normal” again and working hard. Making our families proud.

So anyone in recovery and struggling, just remember we got another chance. We need to live it up for the ones that didn’t. We are here for a reason and have a purpose. Even if you can’t see it now, it will make sense soon.
Xoxo
Happy Monday

Billy Joel - Only The Good Die Young (HD)

Photo dump
Trying to find any makeup pics. Lol. Not many. Although make up is my love, I work from home and many days I don’t wear it! Maybe just weekends now.
I really miss getting ready for work. I know I still can but I guess I get lazy.
Anyways, can’t believe I made it 30 months yall. 30 months sober. Time has flown by.
It’s super hard lately. With the nice weather I have been thinking a lot. Sometimes I wish I can be that go with the flow type girl. Oh y’all going to a rave? Count me in. I WISH! I no my ass will use if I go. When I was in my early 20s I was a “weekend warrior”. Only played on the weekend. I could NEVER do that now. Honestly, I wouldn’t even try. I’m happy about my 2 1/2 yrs. But sometimes I wish I was wired differently. I wish I could go to that rave. But I’m not there yet. I don’t trust my intentions yet. But I’ll get there.

Anyways, happy Friday y’all. We made it another week. Thanks for sticking by. When I started my job in December, it’s very time consuming. But I definitely want to do something with this page.
Maybe show make up or do make up. It’s not very active on here but I’d love it to be a fun and safe place to talk addiction and make up!❤️
Have a safe weekend. Stay blessed

I’m blessed. 30 months 🎊🍾

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The ache is constant 💔

It’s been a minute since I heard this song. I used to listen to it when I was in active addiction. I thought each verse was written for me. I connected with it so hard. I always loved Johnny Cash, but this song shook my soul.
I never want to feel things words so true again. And I won’t. 839 days ago , this was my life. Today- I’m happy

(Really listen to the words. If you are an addict/recovering addict , I think you will understand)😘

Johnny Cash - Hurt (Official Music Video) REMASTERED IN HD! UP TO 4K!Official Music Video for Hurt performed by Johnny Cash.(C) 2002 American Recording Company, LLC

Steady moving along. Don’t mind me 💪💅

Winter depression is no joke! I love winter but hate how dark it gets. Been struggling a few weeks but no thoughts of using, luckily. Just ready to try out a new town. This isn’t the one for me anymore. Way too hard to meet people and it’s lonely. I’m ready for a fresh start come July. Not sure where yet. Working from home now I can live anywhere but no where feels like home anymore. 🤷‍♀️
Still, after over 2 years, I’m trying to get used to the single life but I never can. I miss having a partner and best friend. Thank goodness for lulu or I would have gone crazy by now! Lol

Hope everyone is having a good winter. I’m ready for daylight savings next month! Hurry up sun!☀️

It’s been awhile! Boy life has change. Found an amazing job! Decided to renew my lease another 6 month to decide where I’m moving next and I just been busy ! New career so lots of training! I hardly do my makeup 3xs a week now! Skincare still daily tho 🙂
I’m on a blind taper currently and ever mg I go down I withdraw bad. So bi weekly I’m a mess for 3-5 days. It’s messing with me more mentally then physically this time.
Sometimes I wish I would have just done rehab instead of a Maitenence program but I just wanted to get clean asap! Didn’t want to wait for a bed and was scared to withdraw. But in the end it saved my life so I just gotta deal with it. From 175 mg down to 16mg (last time I asked, cuz it’s a blind). Crazy what you can do in 2 years.

Hope 2022 is treating y’all right so far!
I’m mean, we are still here so I guess we winning no matter what!

Was feeling the duo chrome today. Terra Moons Cosmetics on the lid!