Hair By Sonya Keller

“Our family has a ton of super heroes.”

-Cole, age 6
#2022

I guess what they say is true,
“Good things come to those who wait.”

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Today makes 9 years of sobriety! 365 days since the last time I consciously recognized my efforts to stay sober, what I have done and what I have accomplished. All the mistakes, right and wrong turns and my goals for the future.

And Holy s**t. What a crazy fu***ng year it’s been. By far, the most trying and exhausting 365 days of sobriety and life in general. It feels as though life continues to knock me down day after day, no matter my efforts. Like I continue to pay for mistakes that’s debts should have been cleared years ago. Like maybe I should give up. But the thing is, how does a person “give up”?

After losing one of my dearest friends to the same fight I’ve battled myself.
After being homeless for months with no end in sight.
After having our “home” (tent) wrecked in a storm.
After having our vehicle wrecked from a strike of lightening.
After surrendering our pets to the shelter because we have no home for them anymore.
After losing most of our possessions.
After the struggle to keep both of my businesses from failing.
After countless denials from landlords who hear our story and never seem to care.
After every single instance where I think to myself, “this can’t possibly get any worse”, and it does, almost immediately.

I can’t seem to shake this feeling of hope.
I don’t know how. I don’t know why.
Maybe it’s because I know what it’s actually like to lose everything? I’ve slept on an iron mattress with nothing to my name aside from a state issued orange jumpsuit.
Because I know all that I have to be grateful for.
Because my babies are constantly watching and they need me.
Because possessions mean nothing.
Because the few people who have shown up for me remind me how much of a badass I am.
Because I know we deserve the best life.
Because I learned the hard way that I’m no quitter.
Because there is no better feeling than proving each and every person who has ever doubted me wrong.

So here I am, with very little to show but a number, my three perfect babies, a shimmering homeless glow and a sliver of hope, celebrating 9 years of sobriety!🙏🏼

Two large driftwood wreaths going out today! 🌊

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