Healing Hamsa

Life update. 📣🎢🍿

Age 41. Business owner of 10 years. Esthetician 17. Mother. Wife. Elderly caregiver. A perimenopausal woman who showers with the curtain open. (F?!$ hot flashes) and now a
NURSING STUDENT. 📚💥

I made the decision 1000 times over to go back to school. I just never pulled the trigger. It’s not easy at this stage of life, nor at all something I’d recommend in perimenopause. But if there’s anything I know about myself, I thrive in chaos. The bigger the challenge, the bigger the reward. I spent the entire summer mapping out my plan in silence. I tried to imagine life this semester and how I’d do it all. I needed to imagine it before it could happen. I finally gave in. I just did “it. Enrolled in classes and started Monday. I have two semesters of my prerequisites and then jump head first into a 16 month accelerated BSN.

Nurse Jodi isn’t at all random or strange. I worked from age 18 to 28 in healthcare. I worked geriatrics, icu, psych, interventional medicine, cardiology, and beyond. I know more than someone should without the degree behind my name. I have been delaying this for years. I started years ago and got burnt out working in healthcare. I pivoted on a break from nursing school and became an esthetician. Never imagining I’d own a business. Never imagining 20 years would pass in the blink on an eye. But here we are.

The industry has changed. I have changed. If you would have told me what esthetics would look like today I wouldn’t have believed you. I wouldn’t even listen. It’s not at all the reality of where it was when I started. Good? Bad? I’ll let you decipher. I love what I do, but…….its time. It’s time for me to be the best version of who I am. I am smart. I am gifted. I’m absolutely relentless. I’m opinionated. I’m passionate. I’m devoted to results. I’m determined. For myself and for everyone I take care of. Just ask my private duty client. She really made me realize what Gd wanted from me.

So if you see me less or hear from me less, here’s why. If you think I’ve thrown in the towel, I’m just getting ready for a new load of laundry. You know how I love laundry.

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G R A D E 🪬

Let me start by saying this isn’t your ewwy-gooey emotional post about a sadness of summer end. It’s a real monumental moment for me where my guilt goes to die and better self may emerge. It’s a feeling of deep sigh that I made it through a summer of trying to feel human while navigating a very difficult season of life. The one where you have to work and balance activities, camps, play dates, and every other summer “fun”. Add in LIFE.

This whole post relates to something so apparent in the public eye right now. A willingness to be honest about struggling and feeling like you can’t ever really be honest. Fear of judgment and fear of being labeled a complainer. Fear of expressing your difficulties managing it all. Fear of not knowing what to say when another parent looks at you at orientation and says we’re not ready for this summer to end, but you have no idea how to relate. You just simply smile. What else do you do?

Motherhood is something everyone experiences differently. Although many people examine it under a microscope based on their own opinions and lifestyle. They imagine that their unique situation is reflective of everybody and everything. It’s simply not true. The feeling of overwhelmed and guilt play a role in every day that I’m a mother. Am I doing enough? Is it wrong to feel so lonely because you don’t want anyone to think you’re not a good mom? That your way of trying to manage it is wrong? That the picture perfect summer isn’t a reel on ig because you simply had to work so hard to keep it all together?

If people had real empathy for struggling in any capacity, maybe there wouldn’t be so much judgment. Maybe the expectation could change if we weren’t forced to swallow a picture perfect portrayal of a journey that’s just simply not explained in “REEL” time.

Motherhood is so hard and if we were allowed to admit it openly to inspire empathy rather than fearing judgment……things may be different. Maybe more women wouldn’t feel chastised for being exhausted, overwhelmed, and somewhat depleted. It’s not about the reel. It’s about the REAL. We are not AI. We’re human. Mothers…….

I hope this speaks to someone. ♥️

Same, but different. ✨🗽🌀

Does anyone else feel like this when they finish a Hydrafacial or is it just me?

Another day. Another milia. 👀💥🧑🏻‍🩰💉

That Jan Marini Nederland glow hits different ✨📣

Ju(LIE) as I like to call it. 📣

6 years ago TODAY I opened up a new LLC, started a new business, and rebuilt everything I once created. A business I had built from the ground up before 2 miserable souls decided to pull the rug out from under me. Served me with an injunction, prohibited me from working until a court hearing, and cost me over $435,000 in litigation. To fight for what was rightfully mine and attempt to destroy every single thing I owned. My mental health being one of them.

People are capable of horrible things. They lie. They cheat. They manipulate. They stab you in the back and twist the knife hoping you’ll never stand back up. Hoping you cave to the madness and eventually give up. Hoping you’ll run out of money and mental capacity. Hoping you’ll get sick of fighting. My persistence never wavered. I never gave up.

What we are not we can never understand. We go crazy trying. The truth is the world hasn’t changed much. We all experience this same behavior repeat itself in front of our very eyes. We bury it and disassociate. We don’t give the grace to ourselves to appreciate our strength when we’re able to escape toxic people and toxic cycles.

I’ve made some horrid and costly mistakes in my life. I’ve trusted people that I shouldn’t have even let breathe my air. I had to learn all of these things without a manual. I had to heal after so much heartbreak. I had to listen to the lies and manipulation of so many along the way. Whatever fresh hell that was, it’s all part of my story. I don’t deny it.

7 years later I’m free. Free of anyone and anything trying to steal my sunshine. My gifts. My light. I don’t need anything more than what I’ve got. There’s a reason things don’t work out. It’s all part of your destiny. Nothing makes sense in the moment. Nothing seems real until it isn’t. Trauma becomes teaching. The very curriculum guides you towards your better path. Today Healing Hamsa turns 7 in spite of every miserable MF who tried to stop it.

I could say so much more, but I’ve said enough. Don’t be afraid of anyone. Especially the trash.

📸: 7/31/19

It’s just that good 💥📣✨

Glo2Facial EXOFIRM is that girl.

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Room for Rent 📣

Suite inside my esthetics business. Equipped for any wellness professional or someone searching for a perfect place for a client driven business. Counselor, Massage, or whatever. Just legal. 🤳🏻

Equipped with an infrared sauna (coming soon) and esthetician on site. Duh. 😂

Room rental comes with all provided amenities. No need to pay separate for any utilities, drinks, parking, or internet. Cleaning done by professional company and me because I just can’t help myself. Room has been occupied by an Anesthesiologist Injector. She’s unsure if she’s renewing, but her lease ends 8/31. Could be available 9/1.

Please pass along to friends or others who might be interested. I’d love to rent the room here soon. You have a private room with lock/key, separate client restroom, full kitchen, and on site laundry. If needed. Right in the center of chesterfield, Ellisville, and Ballwin.

Regardless of what some heffas had to say on a podcast, I’m a fair and an overly generous landlord. I expect a kind, no drama, responsible person to rent. There’s been zero issues with my current tenant. Just uncertain if she’s going to continue and would like to secure someone by month end. Someone with an operating business would be ideal. The possibilities are endless and the place is pristine. Can be furnished or unfurnished. Inquire within. Full transparency for the win. I’ve been through the wringer trying to help people and am just simply looking for the right fit.